Justin's Story

Monday, June 10, 2013

Frustrated

So we had a busy weekend!  Justin got out of school for the summer last Thursday, so we had a 3 day weekend before camp started.  Friday me and Justin just hung out and enjoyed his first day of summer vacation.  Saturday was the Family event at the water park with the JDRF.  Well mother nature had other plans, and unfortunately the water park couldn't open due to the storms. But we still got to mingle and enjoy lunch with all the T1 families.  

Since we didn't get to play in the water, it kinda messed up Justins sugars for the day.  It started because I gave him an extra snack when we arrived (in anticipation of swimming, and trying to avoid a low).  We gave him a correction at lunch, and it took all afternoon to come down. Was just frustrating, because he wasn't feeling high, but he was sure acting it with the need to go to the bathroom so often and being thirsty.  We went to a movie, and I think he went 3 times........that hasn't happened since before diagnosis.  I was mad at myself, over a snack......ridiculous!  

Diabetes can be so frustrating!!  Its days like that that make me so sad again, I starting thinking about all the struggles he will face in his life with it and I get so angry and just cry.  It really just sucks.  We have a lot of good days, then one bad day make me revert back to zero again with my feelings.  I just wish I could carry this burden for him, I HATE seeing my precious little boy dealing with all of this!!  

Today was the first day of summer camp! Of course I'm super nervous about it, I was comfortable with how things were handled during the school year, and it's all the same people working the camp, but I just worry because they are playing pretty much all day, outside, swimming, just way more active than a regular school day.  I restocked the school with juice boxes, candy, and extra snacks so if lunch is more than 4 hours after breakfast, or before swimming if he needs something.  I will be sending him with a bag, with all his supplies on days they have an off campus trip.  That way nothing is forgotten. The staff at camp is amazing, I hate being the PIA mother, and they are so nice about everything.  I miss the days I could just drop him off quickly, and not have to check what time lunch is, what time swimming is, blah blah.  I miss just walking in saying good morning, signing him in, hug/kiss,love you bye. I just pray every day for him to have an awesome summer, and that D doesn't get in the way of that.  



 

3 comments:

  1. Dont get to down on yourself. You are doing everything that you can do to make sure that your son stays healthy. We all have those days where D gets the better of us, its getting back up and dusting yourself off thats importnant. Stay strong mama!

    ReplyDelete
  2. You remind me SO much of myself... I have said/felt all of this. Just keep in mind, for some kids, excitement, anxiety etc... will make their BG go up(a lot). It might not have been all about that snack. BUT, if it was, its okay. We can't control when plans change after we prepare for them. All we can do is adjust an move on to the next challenge :) You are an awesome mama!!!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks so much ladies!! I'm so glad we found each other, its always great having other Moms that get it.... :)

      Delete